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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

no. 025 [my day in monterey (please come home)...]


"Please Come Home" by Dustin Kensrue



They say home is where your heart is. Sometimes I question where my heart is, where it has been, and where it will be next. I guess there's a time in every person's life where they just want a break. Sometimes home sweet home can be the most stressful place for someone to be.

People deal with this in a lot of different ways. Some just want to be alone, some shut themselves off to the world, and some just need to get away, even if it's for a minute or two. Sometimes it just takes a little time to yourself, and a new perspective to figure out just what we're running away from. Whether it's a change of scenery, and change of pace, a change of people, the will to be free, or the fear of becoming just like them.

Sometimes when we "run away" from home we figure out that home wasn't so much the problem, but more the solution. Sometimes we look for a place to call home, to be accepted, then when we go out looking for it, we realize that we've been there all along. I guess the grass is always greener.

Unfortunately life isn't a TV show, or a movie. We don't always get a happy ending. And sometimes in going back home you realize why you left in the first place.

I guess in times like that all you can do is try your best to get through it. As a wise old man told me, "sometimes we may feel as if we don't need our home, but in reality it's our home that needs us." I know that he was talking about much more than just a roof over our heads. I guess in that scenario, there's only one thing to do...even if it's the last thing you want to do...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

no. 024 [there's a meaning for this...]


"Is There A Ghost" by Band Of Horses

Everything happens for a reason. I'm a very firm believer of that. But sometimes it's hard to find meaning in something. Sometimes it can seem as if there is no reason, no meaning for something that has happened. It can be that it doesn't make sense, you see no need for it, or you just plain don't understand it. But more times than not, if you really look into it, you might find a meaning, or a reason.

I think if more people would keep that in mind things would be a lot easier. But for some it's a little harder to believe. But I think if you look hard enough, and ask yourself the right questions, you may find that meaning, or reason after all.

Of course not everything will have the same meaning. Sometimes different things can have different meanings to other people. But I think that everything is meaningful in its own way.

Whether its trying to understand your feelings, trying to understand your actions, trying to understand 'them', trying to understand yourself, trying to understand why a good friend would just up and move away within two hours notice, trying to understand why your iPod is making a screeching noise, or even trying to understand meaning in the lyrics to a song that repeats the same verse five times. Everything, and everyone has meaning, you just gotta look for it. If you dismiss something as being meaningless the first time, you may never really be able to see what it truly means later on…