Monday, February 2, 2009
no. 031 [my brand new day...]
"Brand New Day" by Joshua Radin
It’s been a tough year. Although I’ve kept to myself for most of it, I feel as if I’ve grown a lot. I’ve had a lot to think about over the past 366 days, haha. I know it’s been a while. I had this whole thing planned out. I knew exactly what I wanted to write about, and when I wanted to post it; I had a time-line for everything. I had gone through this strenuous planning, writing down, picking the songs, picking the morals, pretty much pre-writing the entire 3rd collection of my blogs, just to end up throwing them out at the last second. If you know me well enough, you know I’m no good at planning anything out. I read them, and I just didn’t like them. They became too static. I think I let them sit around for too long. Most of them had a good message, but they were too much like my older posts, vague.
If I learned anything from reading my older posts, it’s that I was way too vague when it came to what I was really talking about. There are a few people that could pick certain things out, and knew exactly what I was talking about, but the rest were left to use their imagination, or to put themselves in a situation that they had experienced. I don’t know, I liked that idea, but it just seemed so rehashed to the point that I wanted crumble up all the sheets of paper that I had written these down on and possibly miss each shot as I tossed them to the trash can in my loft. They seemed a little more “Grey’s Anatomy” for my taste (God, I hate that show).
As much as I’m going to try to switch up my style, and make my writings a bit more personal, the more I know they’re just going to end up sounding like the end of an episode of Scrubs (I love that show).
But I digress; with a year of experience under my belt you’d think I’d have a lot to write about, right? Wrong. I have absolutely no idea what I’m getting myself into with this next series, but I don’t care. I like this change of pace. It’s exciting. After all the crap that I’ve been through this past year, it’s just nice to have my outlet back. So with this new series I want to take it day by day. It’s a brand new day, each one with a different story to tell. So I’ll make my past my past, even though I may end up writing about it sooner or later (shameless plug: look out for the lost blogs, coming soon, haha!), but we’ll see how this little experiment goes.
While I know I must keep what has happened in the back of my mind, I also must try my hardest to move forward. I think I’ve been doing a good job of that for the most part. I think it’s been hard for a lot of us. Some of us have gotten married, had a child, moved out, moved on, are preparing to start a new part of your life, or are just getting ready to finish up that new part of our life; a lot of us have been moving forward. I guess the best advice for any of us is to take it one day at a time. Each day is a new beginning, a new journey, and a new story. For me, today marks the beginning of a whole new series of stories that are yet to be discovered, and are yet to be told. And even though I don’t have a time-line, I have no idea what I’m going to write about, or even if I’m going to have something to write about, it doesn’t bother me. It doesn’t bother me because I plan on taking it one day at a time. Whatever is supposed to happen will happen. I have to keep telling myself that. It sure makes it a hell of a lot easier to take life one day at a time…